words and actions
and people that you love
there’s a time and place for everything
when their pushes come to shove
the mutiny of security
the fail-proof plan that bends
what’s the point of trying, when
you’re just the means to my end
the laughter and the lies
the once friends you now despise
the ups and downs
the twists and turns
the long life’s sudden demise
always second best
never gonna win
your heart and your affection
i wish
that i
wasn’t so replaceable
and that there were other guys
for me
you’re so good
you’re the best
at making us feel special
at making me a mess
i know,that you’re not right
in your actions and in your mind
but baby i like em crazy
and your just my type
when you were here
I didn’t fear
that you would leave, me
now you are gone
and I was wrong
that you wouldn’t leave, me
and so it goes
and so it is
that life should happen quite like this
a year ago, i was shaking as you picked me up in your car
a year ago, i was shaking as you snuck me into the bar
i couldn’t stop shaking until you gave me a drink, and after that,
i guess i forgot to think
it’s hard to believe, that a year ago, you
were twirling me on the dance floor
it’s hard to believe, that a year ago, i
expected anything more
Last fall, it was cold as we would briskly walk home
Now, it’s a warm December and I walk back alone
How times have changed along with the weather
How I used to hear your words and now the silence floats like a feather
I never knew that 12 short months could bring such a vast change
I never knew that when you left, you would take the cold and leave the rain
shut your eyes and listen
to the sound of the rain
to the sound of your own steady breaths
there is more than what you know
and there is more than what you see
shut your eyes, and listen to me
you need a realization, a sudden wake up call
you need to take a leap, and learn how to fall
what will you learn, with the girls, your happiness on a string
cut the rope and see what the tide brings
i can’t appease you anymore
or tell you that you’re sane
i can’t listen to your complaints
and then watch you be happy again
i am not here to listen to you
so listen to me and i will tell you everything i know
and then please, silently, watch me go
You use your lines
To put me on a shelf
And there I will sit
Because you don’t want to share my wealth
I’m paralyzed by how much I analyze
What has been so clear all along
I’m curious why you are furious
That I called you out for being wrong
Its not the first time we’ve been through this
You’re enjoyment in using the words you twist
My enjoyment in using my well chosen words in the place of a fist
You can play all the games you want
I will suffer temporary “analysis paralysis”
But you’ll never win and I’ll always learn a lesson
You can play the game so well
But in the end, it’ll be my words that cut you down and give you hell
you can do what you want
i don’t really care
i know you won’t chose me
it can be hard to bear
it’s not that i love you
because i don’t think i do
you don’t even love me
this news isn’t new
i just have no one else to think of
and no one else to see
and no one else to hear from
when they have time that is free
i sometimes wish i could break your heart
like you did mine
i want you to want me back
but you will never have the time
as soon as someone else comes along
i will never think of you again
i would hope that its sooner than later
but i don’t yet know my life’s plan
throwback…. this was from last year but I forgot to post it
How could you be such a tease, I thought about you all day
Remember what you said last week? I thought that you meant it
Can’t you see? I don’t want to appease you
But I can’t resist you when you’re begging on your knees
Anything not to look you in the eye
As you inch in closer, I take a step behind the invisible line
I need one more week to think and come up with another lie
Why can’t what I want to do be simply justified
You steal a kiss, then a couple more
You hold my hand, say goodbye, then walk out the door
Beginning to walk home, I see you waiting for me
“What are you doing?” “ Thinking”
“Where are you going?” “Wherever you are going”
“I know where they leave the door open, we can sneak in”
How do you do this to me? How do you make me change my mind?
Your words, they get me every time
